Yesterday, I was 30

I’m going to be cliche and write 30 things I have learned in the last 30 years, in light of turning 30 yesterday.

1. Your love language is extremely important to understand.
2. Nothing in life ever goes the way you planned.
3. The most important role in your life is simply to be You.
4. When your world shatters, don’t make dumb decisions.
5. The people who are supposed to love you the most, have the strongest ability to tear you apart.
6. Trust is fleeting.
7. Fulfillment doesn’t exist in mortal things.
8. If you know with the core of your being you shouldn’t do something, don’t do it.
9. Pleasing people gets you nowhere.
10. You’re going to miss the most important things in life if you rush through and don’t stop to listen and consider the “why shouldn’t I do this?”
11. You cannot rely on someone else to be what you need. They will fail you when you need them most.
12. If friends are distant, just let them go. No matter how much it hurts.
13. If you matter to someone, they will keep you in their life.
14. Children are the most delightful joy you will ever possess in this Life.
15. If someone is relying on you, always make sure to accomplish what they need in a reliable amount of time.
16. It’s better to lie to everyone that you’re okay, than tell them when it’s not.
17. Life is continually disappointing, and there’s no turning back from a mistake.
18. Everyone has an opinion. Seek the Truth, that is what matters most.
19. God will never leave you, or forsake you.
20. Jesus Christ is literally the only entity you can count on.
21. If you know it is a bad idea DON’T DO IT.
22. Staying stuck on the things that make you unhappy, makes you unhappier.
23. There is so much peace in silence.
24. Making friends past 25 is hard.
25. Isolating yourself, while it does protect you, only makes you lonely.
26. Sometimes, you go through things in life, and literally have NOBODY you can actually talk to about it.
27. The loneliest place you can be, is in a crowded room where no one knows you.
28. The second loneliest place you can be, is in a crowded room where everyone knows you, but you cannot connect with those people, no matter how hard you’ve tried.
29. Having friends with things in common is worth Gold.
30. Don’t be afraid to take chances.

Dismal list, the inside of me isn’t exactly the happy, bubbly Sprite I try to be.
Because of my own loneliness, I try so desperately to light the world around me, so others know someone loves them, someone thinks they’re important, and someone doesn’t want them to know the same emptiness I feel.
You can always rely on me to be there for you. No matter the time of day.

Shine brighter than the stars. Even when it kills you inside.