Procrastination

Hello friends!
I don’t know if anybody even follows me anymore.  This might just be a shout out in the dark.

I just submitted a third short story for publication.  I’m going to be featured in another anthology!
The premise of the project was to write outside of your usual comfortzone.
My usual genre is High Fantasy/Fantasy.  The category picked for me was Noir.
After looking up what that meant, I was tickled by the anticipation to write a 1940’s conflict.
The first scene came to me in black and white.  I watched it play out live a movie in my head.  And then the next scene followed.  And…. and…. and then….

Well, then I was stuck, see?
So I spent a few weeks trying to get a handle on the story and feel out the way it wanted to be written.

Finally, as the deadline rapidly approaches, I’ve conqured the Voice and am writing at it every moment I get.

Today I finished the final edits and off it went.  Now I wait to know if they liked it, and whether or not I did a good job.

So, Procrastination.  Thats the name of the game.  And each generation does it the same.
Personally, I deal strongly with the idea that I’m a Nobody, and my stories and tales aren’t worth the effort.  Somebody will never read them.  Somebody wont like them.  Anybody can see that I’ve written a book, but as a Nobody, Anybody could leave the book sitting there unopened.

This depression and loathesome style of Self-Worth is entirely common.  Much too common.

Tonight I finished day 2 of a pretty hardcore workout challenge.  It’s not Insanity, it’s a simple challenge that’s amped up to get you going.
I started it yesterday ((obviously)), and the motivation to workout and stick with it is high!  Motivation pumping, my adrenaline is like, “Lets kick this Booty in the Butt!”
And then tomorrow morning will come.  And I’ll face down the depression all over again.

An endless cycle of procrastination and looming deadlines, because I feel inadequate to write the book.  Publish the book.  Make people want the book- in essence, make them want me.

It’s why I barely write here.  I don’t know how to garner a Following, I don’t know how to promote myself.  I don’t even know what I’m doing.

….but little by little I’m doing it.
I’m writing.  I’m making myself heard.  I’m striving to meet the Goal before me, and get into my Pre-Pregnancy jeans!  My wedding dress!  A new ball gown by Nobember!

……my own High Fantasy novel sitting on shelves in Barnes and Noble.  *is struck with starry-eyed dreams*
Going to Fantasy conventions, Comic-Con, Con-DFW, etc….
Feeling the gratification of knowing I am a /Somebody/ instead of a Nobody.

Yeah.  So that’s me.
How are you?

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Books You Must Read in 2016

After the previous blog of promoting authors and it’s great success, I have decided to arrange a book list too!

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Kyra Dune: The Dragon Within

http://www.amazon.com/Kyra-Dune/e/B00A5WOHGQ/ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_1?qid=1437859997&sr=8-1

 

M.A. Rey: The High Kings Will

http://www.amazon.com/M.A.-Ray/e/B00IREBFUU

 

Kim Fry: Scream For Me

http://www.amazon.com/Kim-Fry/e/B00HJEGTIM/ref=dp_byline_cont_ebooks_1

 

E.H. Demeter: Secrets

http://www.amazon.com/E.H.-Demeter/e/B00QP2PXA4/ref=dp_byline_cont_ebooks_1

 

Angel Thomas: Shadows Of The Mind

http://www.amazon.com/-/e/B00SARZLFY

 

Angie Grigaliunas: Nightmare In Writers Retreat

http://www.amazon.com/Angie-Grigaliunas/e/B00SADA9NM/ref=ntt_dp_epwbk_2

 

Rosa Arcade: Notes To My Younger Self

https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/484884

 

Beth Hammond: Sound Of Stones

http://www.amazon.com/Beth-Hammond/e/B00QZKJ8UW/ref=dp_byline_cont_ebooks_1

 

Stephanie Ayers: Til Death Us Do Part

http://www.amazon.com/Stephanie-Ayers/e/B00H1XOA50/ref=sr_tc_2_0?qid=1453231578&sr=1-2-ent

 

Nathan Jarmusch: Den Of Thieves, A Den of Quills Anthology

http://www.amazon.com/Den-Thieves-Angel-Blackwood-ebook/dp/B00WUN4RQI/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1453231649&sr=1-1&keywords=den+of+thieves+anthology

 

Christine Haggerty: Acquisition

http://www.amazon.com/Christine-Haggerty/e/B00H1YLN4A/ref=sr_tc_2_0?qid=1453231702&sr=1-2-ent

 

Eric E McClure: Touch Of Life

http://www.amazon.com/Eric-E.-McClure/e/B00J7PFPSG/ref=sr_tc_2_0?qid=1453231749&sr=1-2-ent

 

Lorraine Johnston: Later Tartan Gator

http://www.latertartangator.com

 

Shelley Roe: Heroes, A Pheonix Quill Anthology

http://www.amazon.com/Heroes-TPQ-Anthology-Shelley-Roe-ebook/dp/B016FR57NQ/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1453231882&sr=1-1&keywords=heroes+a+tpq+anthology

 

Paul R Davis: Drowning In The Sands Of G’Desh

http://www.amazon.com/Paul-R-Davis/e/B00WXHL32W/ref=sr_tc_2_0?qid=1453231943&sr=1-2-ent

 

RA McCandless: The Flames Of Perdition Series

http://www.amazon.com/Tears-Heaven-RA-McCandless-ebook/dp/B00H4IBDSE/

 

Christopher Taylor: Old Habits

http://www.amazon.com/Christopher-R-Taylor/e/B00OM67WB8/

 

Alizabeth Lynn: Cancer Sucks

http://www.amazon.com/Alizabeth-Lynn/e/B00R0U1QH4/ref=dp_byline_cont_book_5

 

Thanks so much to the authors who helped to put this blog, and the previous ones together! – Dana Villa-Smith

 

 

 

 

 

Stress Undressed

There are few words in life that accurately describe the emotional train wreck women experience during motherhood.
Currently,  stressed and anxious, I count down the days to my daughter’s birth.
Today, we learned that she’s breeched. I have one week to help manipulate her into turning, and if she doesn’t, I’m scheduled into an appointment for an inversion. The determination to get her to flip first is pretty high– as I’m avoiding a c-section at all costs unless it’s absolutely necessary. 36 weeks and 2-4 to go, I’m so ready to be done.

The absolute delight of being published is not lost on me, nor the anticipation for more opportunities to put together other anthologies with my dear friends and peers in Den of Quills.

However, current circumstances in my home have brought about the worst in me, creating despair.  Causing utter betrayal of my Game Face, ripping doors open to reveal the chaotic winds of “what if” that blow at hurricane strength in my heart.

Any semblance of Sanity I might produce gets formed to the written page in stories of free and frivolous characters.  My latest being Keegan Brand and Farah.  Ever since these two paired up in my imagination for the DoQ anthology,  more stories and adventures desire to be told.  They’re fun, new and interesting,  which has been refreshing in the midst of Life.
We all need a bit of therapeutic indulgence from time to time-though I wish very much that Trillian and Yulissa would spark my Muse again as they are currently waiting for an episode to finish!

The Cast of Eldegras sit quietly in their green room, waiting for me to pick their series back up as well.  High Fantasy, fully plotted out, with well defined world building finished, and character plots, sub-character plots, supporting cast…..  All of it hanging in the shadow, waiting on me to have the courage to produce it.

Priorities align when you set the emotional roller-coaster aside and allow yourself to decide what is most important.
In writing, the self-doubt and lack of confidence that creeps in can hamper your desire to produce what you love.
Will the fear of rejection put your stories on a shelf in your brain,  where no one else will ever experience them?
Will the efforts you put into your books be lost when you watch enthusiasm for your stories die out?

Right now, life in the Villa-Smith home is filled with uncertainty, worry, doubt, anxious anticipation– so many things are happening or waiting to happen.
I’m allowing the circumstances to dictate how I feel in a given moment,  which in turn separates me from doing the things I love most.  Writing of course, being one of them.

Don’t let your stress do that to you.  It’s not worth it.  If you have a hobby you absolutely enjoy,  the core of your being thrives on it, don’t ever back burner to Life.  Use it in the quiet moments to unwind and unlock what you’ve been holding onto.  Pursue Yourself in the stillness when you can hide away in time to yourself. Make a point to not think about the things going on outside of your control,  and just hold on to focusing on You.
It’s difficult,  but after a while, realizing that you and your sanity are more important than your circumstances will help to make the most of every quiet moment you have.

~ * ~ * ~
36 weeks pregnant with my second child, a newly published author, and a frazzled housewife raising a toddler, I do hope that my goings-on inspire you to push through and accomplish your dreams.  There are no excuses, if housewives with young children can do it, so can you.

Den Of Thieves: A Den Of Quills Anthology

Dear Readers,
Discount codes are available to download the Anthology I was recently published in.
I’m VERY excited to share this with all of you, as it is my first full-length story to be published.
We worked exceptionally hard, in Den of Quills, to put this book together, and proceeds from each purchase will be donated to the World Literacy Foundation.
Of the 14 writers who put the books together, many of us are first time authors.
I thank each of you for your support, and your interest in me and my works.

It is available on Smashwords:
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/539289

Through May 31st, you may receive a 25% discount!
Use coupon code: VB87J

It is also available in a print copy on Create Space:
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Also available at a 25% discount through May 31st!
Use coupon code: TGERED9J

Thank you guys for your support!
Blessed May to you all!